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I had gone to the lake...
To be there... alone...
Hoping you would come...
To just... talk to me.
Our lives had been on detour
For a long, long time
And we needed... to talk...
To really talk... about this.
I had worried... really... feared...
That... I might die...
Never having talked...
With no one ever knowing...
And... walking along the shore of the lake...
I wondered... "would I die right here...?"
Was I in danger... here...? now...?
And... you didn't come... to talk to me.
And so... it happened... that I did see you...
At the store... people all around...
And... it was unfair to me...
So exposed... so public...
That... I was glad you turned away...
If glad is possible...
To spare me the shame...
The surprise...
The impact of... reality... on me.
I wanted to pour my life out to you...
You... the only one who could possibly understand...
The only one who really knew...
And... if I had died...
And... not told it...
I would have felt the worse...
I would have felt... abandoned by life...
I would have felt... that the lie... had won.
If we ever do talk...?
If we ever spend the time...
To... talk as friends...
For... all love is friendship...
Could you...? please...? talk nice to me...?
Could I...? please...? trust you...?
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